Oh i don't know where to start really this afternoon has been emotionally challenging for me i entered a comp and got my hopes up that i could possibly win but no someone else did and didn't even get a minor prize . Yes i know this shouldn't bother me its just a comp but to me it wasn't just any comp it was to get closer to my hero the man in the photo . I know so many people who have meet him and spent time with him and after being a huge fan of his for over 20yrs and having some of my biggest life challenges that have happened at the same time as some of his i feel a bond and connection to him silly i know , even some have said this is bordering on obsessive but i don't see it that way . Music has played a major part in my life and along with my art it always will ,
My partner doesn't understand my love of music and the fact that i have hidden my llove of foo's for so long cause of the things he says about music but resently i have said bugger i'am who i'am and am not hiding it any more and its causing tention . Am still feeling lost in do i belong here or back in the uk but then i remember i haven't been there in 20yrs and most of what i know is gone in my home town so i feel even more lost ....
